The scanned image of a pill’s cover, which is empty and crystallized, has been printed on glossy paper. Borax crystallized the surface and gave it a sugary appearance. I like how I started with sugar as a metaphor for love and violence and ended up with Borax. I should mention that love and sexual violence are like two sides of a coin to me as I was in love but experienced sexual violence with my partner. It seems like sugar would be a sweat object, but instead, I used Borax since it is toxic, as sexual violence and love can be harmful to a person. Say my name is self-scream against depression, while I had depression all the time and cannot reveal it in front of my family and my friends, since in our society not every people have the courage to go to a psychiatrist. But I accepted it, was born with it, and lived with it. After dealing with many traumas, I realized I have depression and need help. Naming this piece was essential to me. I wanted to let people know that you should not be ashamed of having a disease like depression. So once out load, say its name!
This piece’s size is as same as a king-size bed, so as a performance, I slept on it for several days to create the pressure I was enduring those days. As a result, you can find wrinkles on half of it and the absence of the second person in the other half. While I was doing this performance, I was influenced by the Carry That Weight performance by Emma Sulkowicz
